Change

It seems like is when we’re having a tough time that we tend to eager more for a change, for a life turning event. Moving to a new home, a new country, changing to a new job or a new school, enter in college, go in a big trip, meeting new people, start a new serious relationship with someone, live with somebody else, becoming a parent. So many things can change our behavior and life’s perception. It takes only one of that events happening to somebody close to us that make us think differently.  And as we get older, is those changes that make us mature, grow in mind and spirit. And nothing says that those changes are going to be good, as matter of fact, many can be bad. We got to be humble, strong, face forward… That sounds cliché, I know, but only If you are able to conquer new responsibilities, to let go some things of your past that give you comfort but don’t give you independence (like daddy and mummys home) and lead you to be stuck in the same place for a long time, only then you’ll be able to embrace those changes in your life a became a fulfilled adult. Well… I see only advantages in change, isn’t that right? No wonder when life seems crappy, you desire change… Things get better! And you probably have that humble part down, because things haven't been easy. And let’s face it, you’re young, you should take advantages of the opportunities that you have while you can, of course! Not when you’re older.

That’s all true… But let just think things through… And some parents will love and thank me what I’m about to say right now… But you don’t have to go extreme… You don’t have to run away to a new country just as a way to erase the rest, for example! And we all know that it's not easy to grow up, but sometimes it's the little things that make the difference! And with time, If we grow up, we learn to select what matters and what doesn’t, and cope with it. And things like always saying “I don’t give f*ck” as mechanism of defense that sometimes is enforced in nowadays society, will disappear… Be honest, If you really don’t give a f*ck, you wouldn’t be saying that, or as matter of fact, you wouldn’t even be talking about it.

Regret

                                      

“If only I knew then what I know now”, “If only I could go back in time”, “If only I could resay or redo things I’ve said and done”, so cliché and used words that spell one only word: Regret.

I’ve already talked about how “what if’s” could influence our minds, how illusions are part of our lives… But the mistakes or the things that we wanted to do but didn’t do after all, can easily haunt us as well. To look back at a phase we were at in our lives and think “wow, that sucked, why did I put up with that?”, or even “why did I hang out with that person at all?”, and even if we don’t want it, that phase will always be part of us, there’s nothing we can do about it. Sometimes it hurts to look back, sometimes we feel ashamed remembering some episodes that happen that day because of that thing. These are normal reactions, and sometimes we take it in and learn from experience, and we even think that this new knowledge is our highest truth and the slogan of our lives. We think “Oh, I’m so wise, I’ve been through so much”, even If we learn that humility is a thing to value. We forget that the things that we’re experiencing now, are also object of evaluation, reflection, thinking… And that kind of attitude can bring us trouble too, and with that, before we know it, we’re hurting again.

People won’t change just because you changed. Mean people will still exist, people older than us that are more immature will still exist, people younger than us that are more wiser than us will also still exist. People won’t adapt to you, the world won’t adapt to you, and just because you have some self-called skills, you have no right to demand that same skill from others. And this, this is what’s called humility, and If you have it, karma will have less reasons to affect you, and life will smile to you. New beginnings are real, kind people are real, people who value that same things as you, are also real… So treat them well, If you feel insecure, don’t charge them with that by using aggression, don’t take them for granted, don’t give them reasons to bring your worst side to the surface, because that way, you’ll regret that later, and once again regret fills your mind and heart, and a never ending cycle is formed.

Unlove

How do you know that you have a broken heart? When every little thing that spells “happy puppy love” annoys you… When you read cheesy stupid things (like the ones written on this blog) and it disgusts you… When you hate yourself for falling in love in the first place. “I’ve should known this wasn’t right”. When you wish you could go back in time, and never let that person have any sort of impact in you. You might hate them, for many reasons that you may have… But at the end of the day, you’re the one to blame. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah… Why? Why does that person has to be so gentle when he/she doesn’t have any intentions or feels anything? Why pretend when you don’t even care? That’s all true… But you’re the one who misunderstood… The things that you called signs? Yeah right… “signs” you say…. You’re the one who created an illusion based on what if: “what if he/she falls for me?”, “what If we work out”, “what If we are forever”… Would be perfect, right? You might even think “I’ll never fall this hard for someone again… Not like this”. That might be true, who knows… But, don’t worry! It will be alright! Just, take your time. For some time, cut any contact you have with that person. Conversations? Only If necessary! And just like a baby learns to let go of mummy skirt… Let go of that person. Meet new people, change something! Dye your hair, buy new clothes. Move on. Get realist: nothing is forever. Because, what was truly yours once, it always comes back to you, one way or another. If you do that, you’ll remember that love not as “I was so stupid back then”, but with smile, because you learned, you prepared yourself for something bigger, you unloved.

Growing Up

Today, I got a broken heart… Today, the sun didn’t shine so bright… Today, I want to be loved… Today, I sink deep, and think logically… Today, I see the reality… Today, I’m really gonna put in practice the rule “I’m gonna treat people like They treat me”… Today, I’m no longer naïve… Today, I say the truth… Today, I learn that don’t being mean doesn’t mean that I allow people to treat me like They want… Today, I gain confidence on my qualities, and become humble by my mistakes… Today, I shut down people who only use me… Today, I try to see beyond the mirror… Today, I try not to be angry… Today, I won’t be stubborn…  Today, I look back and regret what I did wrong and I’m proud of what I did well… Today, I won’t defend myself desperately… Not to who puts me down. Today, I apologize… Today, I don’t force people to be what I want them to be… Today, I let time pass by… Today, I get motivated… Today, I seek my goals… Today, I’m fair with people…Today, I smile… Today, I don’t give importance to small stuff… Today, I learn with the past, live the present, and meditate on the future…  Today, I express thankfulness to who is by my side, and not in words, but with actions…

Maybe Today, nothing really special happened lol… But today, there’s still hope… Why? Because today, I may haven’t got a broken heart… And the sun actually shined as bright as usual… But just because today is today, I bow to all people, and take one more step!... Why? Today I just colded my mind, and warmed my heart … And with all that… What happen today after all? Today… I’ve just grown up. So, today, I’m happy.

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Hurt

My apologies, but tonight, I’m not in the mood to say how perfectly innocent and vunlerable people and the world can be. How love gives life such a joy. How people deserve second chances. Tonight, allow me to go a little darker…

 

People suck! Literally and not literally speaking. We all are afraid. We all have the survival instinct to defend ourselves. And in this world, we better have it. But true justice isn’t made by bloody hands, true justice isn’t made by lawyers.  Whatever is the girlfriend who cheated on the boyfriend (or vice-versa, I’m not a feminist, okay?), the lovesick person who got nothing more fun to do with her life than destroying healthy relationships spreading insignificant and confusing things as rumors. I mean… How low can you get? Are you that insecure that you have to push people down to think that you’re something? Are you a child? Can’t you resolve your problems like an adult? Girls and Boys that are in High School right now, I bet you can relate with this words… The thing is: learn. There is no excuse to be mean. Things like that aren’t proper behavior from young adults (and people call me immature, pff!). I try not to be like that, but sometimes… I get hurt. We all do. Bad things happen for no special reason at all. The world is unfair. Am I saying anything new here? A clue: NO! Stop victimizing yourself, grow some balls! You did something wrong? Apologize. But try not to do it too often, because that’ll be just a turn off.

In Conclusion: Remember, people may suck (or not), but you’re not here alone. What is an insult to you, it might not be for others. What is a big deal for you, it isn’t for others. Don’t expect that people have to have a College degree on pleasing you. ADAPT! You’re angry? You’re hurt? Great! Let’s deal with it in a healthy way then: cry, punch a wall, do boxing, muay thai, talk with someone who’ll listen, write on a diary, or on a blog (ahah) something to get that suffering out of you. You’ll see that in the end of the day, you’ll have a smile on your face and you didn’t accidently hurt back someone you love by transferring that feeling to them.  After all, what more do you want from people?

Ps- Oh, and honestly...  If you see someone hurting another person as just a watcher, and in the next day you are all kisses and hugs with the bitch/asshole, you’re honestly as bad as them. You don’t have to be mean, you would be lowering yourself to that evil person’s level, but at least have some common sense.

"The Hunger Games" - Review

This movie… Was a surprise for me! It was just another day at the movies with some friends… And we actually planned to see another movie (I don’t remember which one), but when we went to buy the tickets, that movie was sold out… We had to chose other movie instead, and so we did – we chose  “The Hunger Games”. Some of us were happy with that, other still wanted to see the other movie. I personally, didn’t know what to expect… I had no expectations! At least high ones… But when the movie ended… I can only speak for myself, but I think we were all impressed!

Great story line, intense moments, moments to laugh, moments to cry, moments to be scared and moments to be relief. We can easily get involve with the characters and with what’s happening to them. It's not every movie that has that factor! And it was what made me chose it for this review. Because this movie is a turbulence of emotions! And I’m going to admit… As you might have already understood by now… Romance is my Achilles’s heel! (ahah) And for the fans of young love, you’re going to like this movie!

The clothes on the movie were fun, and the special effects had quality (something that since we’re on 2012 I thought it was something guaranteed, especially when we’re talking about movies that reach the theaters, but some movies with also great story lines, have proved me wrong, I’m not gonna say names The Last Airbender coff-coff, but They did disappoint me). I don’t know well any of the actors, so I can’t develop a judgment on their acting…  but I can say this: I wouldn’t change any of them! I think They were great, no exceptions.  My favorite characters? Rue, Katniss, Peter and Haymich, by order. My least favorite? That would have to be Gale… Not that I disliked him… I’m actually curious to see what he’ll do in the second movie.  

I’m not gonna say much about the plot of the movie; because I believe seeing this movie with spoilers it ruins it. Also, If you can, go see it with your brother or sister! Why? I’m gonna say it by experience, as a younger sister, it warms your heart seeing your older sister tearing up when They asked Katniss the reason why she volunteered!
Well… That’s it! Oh, what is that? I am forgetting something? Well, I’m gonna be honest, I would love to make a comparison between the book and the movie, but If didn’t mention the book… It was because I didn’t read it! lol But don’t worry, I plan to! The movie got me interested, and I think that everyone that also enjoyed the movie as I did, should give the book a chance! After all, the book has lot more details to offer!

And once again, I say good bye with a soundtrack of the movie. I must say, the music on this movie isn't memorable as some are, but it stills accompanies the overall quality of this movie. A must see definitely, and one of my favorites so far.

 

Imagination

  Evolution gave us something amazing… Imagination… Amazingly annoying… Amazingly powerful… The source of every “super-human” event. The ability to dream, to imagine a better world, a different world,  a world where we live adventures and find our soul mate in between, where the most amazing fairy tales and love stories happen, where we only need a stick of wound to make magic, where vampires and werewolves exist, where we can dominate and do amazing things with the 4 elements that nature gave us…  But at the end of the day… Water will always be the source that moves us, that is part of us, not the opposite, air is what makes us be alive and with our feet well grounded, not fly around has we had wings. We can mold earth all we want, but earth will always be the one to tell our History, not the inverse! And fire may appear to be conquered by us a million years ago, but it still is as uncontrollable, unstable and destructive as ever was… We may be special, we may be unique in a lot of ways, but there is and it will always be something  above the human being: Nature. 

  We can’t control destiny… If such thing exists! We don’t chose our parents, who we meet, where we were born, what life make us deal with… But we still have the ability to dream, to chose, to make our own path… To be influenced by the right role models, to give attention to who we relate with, and avoid who we know is a bad influence , to build our home, and to take opportunities! Because imagination may hurt, and always will do so- hurt us… To make us imagine thousand of better possibilities… Unreal possibilities… After all… Let’s just face it! And excuse my language... But reality can seriously f*cking suck balls. And that moment where we came back to reality it will always take the smile out of our faces … But the ones who accomplish their dreams are the ones who keep that smile with a tear or two, and then think: “What can I do to be closer to that dream? What can reality give me?”