Growing Up

Today, I got a broken heart… Today, the sun didn’t shine so bright… Today, I want to be loved… Today, I sink deep, and think logically… Today, I see the reality… Today, I’m really gonna put in practice the rule “I’m gonna treat people like They treat me”… Today, I’m no longer naïve… Today, I say the truth… Today, I learn that don’t being mean doesn’t mean that I allow people to treat me like They want… Today, I gain confidence on my qualities, and become humble by my mistakes… Today, I shut down people who only use me… Today, I try to see beyond the mirror… Today, I try not to be angry… Today, I won’t be stubborn…  Today, I look back and regret what I did wrong and I’m proud of what I did well… Today, I won’t defend myself desperately… Not to who puts me down. Today, I apologize… Today, I don’t force people to be what I want them to be… Today, I let time pass by… Today, I get motivated… Today, I seek my goals… Today, I’m fair with people…Today, I smile… Today, I don’t give importance to small stuff… Today, I learn with the past, live the present, and meditate on the future…  Today, I express thankfulness to who is by my side, and not in words, but with actions…

Maybe Today, nothing really special happened lol… But today, there’s still hope… Why? Because today, I may haven’t got a broken heart… And the sun actually shined as bright as usual… But just because today is today, I bow to all people, and take one more step!... Why? Today I just colded my mind, and warmed my heart … And with all that… What happen today after all? Today… I’ve just grown up. So, today, I’m happy.

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Hurt

My apologies, but tonight, I’m not in the mood to say how perfectly innocent and vunlerable people and the world can be. How love gives life such a joy. How people deserve second chances. Tonight, allow me to go a little darker…

 

People suck! Literally and not literally speaking. We all are afraid. We all have the survival instinct to defend ourselves. And in this world, we better have it. But true justice isn’t made by bloody hands, true justice isn’t made by lawyers.  Whatever is the girlfriend who cheated on the boyfriend (or vice-versa, I’m not a feminist, okay?), the lovesick person who got nothing more fun to do with her life than destroying healthy relationships spreading insignificant and confusing things as rumors. I mean… How low can you get? Are you that insecure that you have to push people down to think that you’re something? Are you a child? Can’t you resolve your problems like an adult? Girls and Boys that are in High School right now, I bet you can relate with this words… The thing is: learn. There is no excuse to be mean. Things like that aren’t proper behavior from young adults (and people call me immature, pff!). I try not to be like that, but sometimes… I get hurt. We all do. Bad things happen for no special reason at all. The world is unfair. Am I saying anything new here? A clue: NO! Stop victimizing yourself, grow some balls! You did something wrong? Apologize. But try not to do it too often, because that’ll be just a turn off.

In Conclusion: Remember, people may suck (or not), but you’re not here alone. What is an insult to you, it might not be for others. What is a big deal for you, it isn’t for others. Don’t expect that people have to have a College degree on pleasing you. ADAPT! You’re angry? You’re hurt? Great! Let’s deal with it in a healthy way then: cry, punch a wall, do boxing, muay thai, talk with someone who’ll listen, write on a diary, or on a blog (ahah) something to get that suffering out of you. You’ll see that in the end of the day, you’ll have a smile on your face and you didn’t accidently hurt back someone you love by transferring that feeling to them.  After all, what more do you want from people?

Ps- Oh, and honestly...  If you see someone hurting another person as just a watcher, and in the next day you are all kisses and hugs with the bitch/asshole, you’re honestly as bad as them. You don’t have to be mean, you would be lowering yourself to that evil person’s level, but at least have some common sense.

"The Hunger Games" - Review

This movie… Was a surprise for me! It was just another day at the movies with some friends… And we actually planned to see another movie (I don’t remember which one), but when we went to buy the tickets, that movie was sold out… We had to chose other movie instead, and so we did – we chose  “The Hunger Games”. Some of us were happy with that, other still wanted to see the other movie. I personally, didn’t know what to expect… I had no expectations! At least high ones… But when the movie ended… I can only speak for myself, but I think we were all impressed!

Great story line, intense moments, moments to laugh, moments to cry, moments to be scared and moments to be relief. We can easily get involve with the characters and with what’s happening to them. It's not every movie that has that factor! And it was what made me chose it for this review. Because this movie is a turbulence of emotions! And I’m going to admit… As you might have already understood by now… Romance is my Achilles’s heel! (ahah) And for the fans of young love, you’re going to like this movie!

The clothes on the movie were fun, and the special effects had quality (something that since we’re on 2012 I thought it was something guaranteed, especially when we’re talking about movies that reach the theaters, but some movies with also great story lines, have proved me wrong, I’m not gonna say names The Last Airbender coff-coff, but They did disappoint me). I don’t know well any of the actors, so I can’t develop a judgment on their acting…  but I can say this: I wouldn’t change any of them! I think They were great, no exceptions.  My favorite characters? Rue, Katniss, Peter and Haymich, by order. My least favorite? That would have to be Gale… Not that I disliked him… I’m actually curious to see what he’ll do in the second movie.  

I’m not gonna say much about the plot of the movie; because I believe seeing this movie with spoilers it ruins it. Also, If you can, go see it with your brother or sister! Why? I’m gonna say it by experience, as a younger sister, it warms your heart seeing your older sister tearing up when They asked Katniss the reason why she volunteered!
Well… That’s it! Oh, what is that? I am forgetting something? Well, I’m gonna be honest, I would love to make a comparison between the book and the movie, but If didn’t mention the book… It was because I didn’t read it! lol But don’t worry, I plan to! The movie got me interested, and I think that everyone that also enjoyed the movie as I did, should give the book a chance! After all, the book has lot more details to offer!

And once again, I say good bye with a soundtrack of the movie. I must say, the music on this movie isn't memorable as some are, but it stills accompanies the overall quality of this movie. A must see definitely, and one of my favorites so far.

 

Imagination

  Evolution gave us something amazing… Imagination… Amazingly annoying… Amazingly powerful… The source of every “super-human” event. The ability to dream, to imagine a better world, a different world,  a world where we live adventures and find our soul mate in between, where the most amazing fairy tales and love stories happen, where we only need a stick of wound to make magic, where vampires and werewolves exist, where we can dominate and do amazing things with the 4 elements that nature gave us…  But at the end of the day… Water will always be the source that moves us, that is part of us, not the opposite, air is what makes us be alive and with our feet well grounded, not fly around has we had wings. We can mold earth all we want, but earth will always be the one to tell our History, not the inverse! And fire may appear to be conquered by us a million years ago, but it still is as uncontrollable, unstable and destructive as ever was… We may be special, we may be unique in a lot of ways, but there is and it will always be something  above the human being: Nature. 

  We can’t control destiny… If such thing exists! We don’t chose our parents, who we meet, where we were born, what life make us deal with… But we still have the ability to dream, to chose, to make our own path… To be influenced by the right role models, to give attention to who we relate with, and avoid who we know is a bad influence , to build our home, and to take opportunities! Because imagination may hurt, and always will do so- hurt us… To make us imagine thousand of better possibilities… Unreal possibilities… After all… Let’s just face it! And excuse my language... But reality can seriously f*cking suck balls. And that moment where we came back to reality it will always take the smile out of our faces … But the ones who accomplish their dreams are the ones who keep that smile with a tear or two, and then think: “What can I do to be closer to that dream? What can reality give me?”

Disappointment

Hopping for the best… Hopping to be the best, to have the best, to know the best. Is that strange? Is it just me? Everybody has different priorities, but everyone seems to be looking for a little taste of being on top. With great power comes great responsibility (Fine… Kill me for using a movie quote, but it's true)… And high expectations, by the way! Never heard the portuguese expression “Higher the climb, bigger the fall”? It’s also true. When you fall in love, for example, even If you know the person well, you create an adorned version of him or her. An illusion, basically. Normally that version tend to emerge on people we don’t know that well, and has many qualities and is appealing to the eye and/or the heart, but is also deceitful, because obviously it doesn’t correspond to the reality. And that’s the reason why falling in love sometimes (okay, most of the times) makes us look stupid.

Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with falling in love with someone new! The mystery sometimes can be so charming and lead to a felling so intense that it only can lead either to hate, or passion. Hate when the person reveals not to be what expected. Passion when exists a connection of some kind. After all, we all have our plus and flaws, and people can be together for a lifetime. All this can make love sound confusing and complicated… But who said it wasn’t? Since when is that simple? But if only people understood that being in love isn’t only feeling the butterflies and thinking all the time about how perfect that person is, falling in love actually is to look at a person, see their flaws, accept them, see their qualities, reflect them in a way that you bring out the best of the other person, not the worst.  

But we can’t do that If we don’t make mistakes, If we don’t get disappointed, because “the young hearts are foolish, they make such mistakes, too eager to give their love away ”. But that’s part of life! It’s normal to have that fantasy at first. After all… Who’s perfect? No one, but we have many time to find out. We don’t need to rush!

"Howl's Moving Castle" - My Review

Today, I’m going to do something different. Why? Someone actually told me “You see a lot of films, why don’t you discuss them on your Blog instead of talking about love and all that cheesy things?”, at first I was like “HEY! What’s wrong with cheesy subjects?”, but then I tought “That’s actually not a bad idea!”. So here we are today! But don’t worry, I won’t stop posting about “cheesy things”… And I have what I consider a special choice for my first “movie review”, Enjoy!

Don’t want cheesy things? Well I chosed a cheesy movie! – what a rebel.
So, the reason what I chose this movie is pretty obvious.  I’m not an expert, but I love anime, for some reason (and I’m excluding Hentai from this affirmation), anime seems to me the only type of cartoon series and movies that are entertaining for both children and adults, without making them not understandable for childreen and not considered stupid or boring by elders. “Howls Moving Castel” is not exception to that. I think it is not very discussable the opinion that Hayao Miyazaki is the best anime director. I liked “Spirited Away”, but for some reason “Howls Moving Castle” was a lot more fascinating to me. My theory in that is that “Spirited Away” is more commercial or I related more with the characters on "Howl's Moving Castle". My conclusion is that is probably a little bit of both. But that’s just my opinion. – perfectly arguable.
Yes, an average normal girl finding a cute, gorgeous, kind magician guy and him to fall in love with her it’s a pretty damn attractive idea. But the values, the perspectives on War and the way different people handle it, is also interesting and present in this film. And the intention behind people’s actions and choices and their personal history, it’s clear in this movie. Also, the physical aspect that it’s transmitted in this movie is subtle and in my opinion very relevant to express to people. The fact that someone young with a old body is recognize as just someone with a young mind with physical obstacles, leads to the importance of the personality of someone, and to not judge a book from its cover. – that’s sweet. And the idea of that someone who becomes lost in his own world and its own goals loses his heart even If is a kind person, that’s a pretty good metaphor.
The music in the movie is no less than expected from an anime and it is perfect for the context which is in. So, not wanting to be more spoiler for the ones who actually didn’t see it back in 2004, I'll just advice someone that only saw this movie back then or doesn’t see it in a while,see it again! This is a pretty good movie to repeat, You’ll probably notice some details you didn’t notice before.
Being that said, this movie is in my favorite list… ;)

And with this soulfull, brilliant and romantic soundtrack I end my first pseudo-movie review.

Emotion vs. Reason

It’s funny how we seem to tend more to see love when we’re on war… Funny, but not illogical, after all, it makes sense to search for one extreme when You’re experiencing the other. Because when you’re on War, the first thing you try to do is to protect your loved ones. But does that mean that you love them less when you don’t feel such a necessity to protect them? I don’t believe so.
So the problem isn’t in the feeling, people don’t stop feeling love just because They’re not on a war environment. The issue seems to be on the expression of that love. It’s true that people don’t express love all the same way, but at the smallest sign of danger, of hate, we could jump and scream the loudest we could just to say how much we love our family, friends, partners, and so on… Once more, a logical conclusion. But there’s still one important point missing here: emotions are not supposed to be logical… So what the hell is happening here?! Oh, I forgot… The good old emotion vs. reason drama. Many, many people since writers, philosophers, just any anyone with an romantic and artistic vein debated about this. And still it didn’t got old. Why? To me, the answer seems pretty simple and clear, but putting in to practice? That’s a whole other level. That answer is Yin Yang, balance, equilibrium, equilibrio, baransu.
In my opinion, one of the most important concepts to understand and search for in our life. Because in practice it is impossible to reach it, but it is a key to success and happiness. I repeat: success and happiness, not perfection. There’s nothing wrong with searching for perfection, If you’re conscious that it doesn’t exist such a thing… Same thing for imperfection. Truth is: it is what it is and work with what you have. That’s how you mix reality and faith. That’s how you can be logical and emotional. Because is from the moment you believe that thing can happen! ;)